i'm craving

I really want this camera )':
but somehow I can't find a place that sells the blue one..
even in amazon they only have the white one
(in other places only the white and hello kitty ones ]': )
please tell me if you find a guaranteed place that sells this camera
I'm saving my money only for this, no lie.

blah blah blah

discussed some things with abiella earlier today at school (it's still wednesday here, 'kay? :B)

kita ngomongin soal masalah sekolah segala macem. dan hal pertama yang gue inget banget gue bilang adalah bahwa 'murid itu merasa sekolah sebagai kewajiban dan bukannya hak'.

come to think about it, pasti orangtua kalian dari pas masih kecil kalo ngebangunin bilangnya "ayo bangun, sekolah" dengan nada menyuruh. menurut gue, hal itu aja udah menyebabkan anak berpikir "oh iya, harus sekolah ya" dan lama-kelamaan mereka akan berpikir "gue sekolah karena disuruh orangtua, bukan karena keinginan gue". correct me if i'm wrong. gue disini ga mau jadi orang yang sok tau, gue cuma mau nulis apa yang ada di pikiran gue.
coba dari kecil orangtua kalian bilangnya "ayo, kamu mau sekolah apa nggak?" pasti mindset kalian akan beda. kalian jadi dibebaskan untuk sekolah atau tidak, dan itu yang menimbulkan rasa tanggung jawab kalian untuk ke sekolah.

gue ga mau munafik, at times gue juga males banget yang namanya sekolah, tapi itu cuma kalo gue lagi capek, baik fisik maupun mental. gue emang sering bilang "ah niat sekolah gue nol besar" but that doesn't mean i really don't want to go to school. semales-malesnya gue sekolah, gue akan tetep masuk kalo gue bisa, karena itu hak gue.

coba dipikirin baik-baik deh. kalian itungannya sekolah udah bayar mahal-mahal tapi kalian ga masuk terus, buat apa kalian sekolah? lebih baik kalian mengundurkan diri dan uangnya itu untuk hal yang lain, let's say membiayai anak jalanan untuk sekolah? I'm just trying to say that there are lots of people out there who want to go to school like you but they can't, and you can go to school but you don't want to. it's such an irony :/

next thing: kemalasan itu bisa menular lho. coba kalian pagi-pagi ke sekolah udah riang gembira tiba-tiba JJANG temen kalian tampangnya bete semua. man, it sucks. pasti kalian nantinya bawaannya males aja sekolah. i'm wondering kalo misalnya males bisa gampang banget nular, kenapa rajin itu susah banget ditularin ya? another irony~

tadi gue sempet ngomong ke nyokap soal hal yang pertama (hak dan kewajiban) dan gue amazed banget, karena ternyata nyokap gue pemikirannya sama. dan buruknya adalah, gue baru sekarang nyadar kalo itu kenapa dulu gue kalo ketiduran suka didiemin. (karena kalo pas dibangunin gue suka ngigo ngomong 'nggaaak~' OTL)

i'm sleepy, should've gone to sleep. still have try out tomorrow. oh, and i think i'll stay in my grandma's house tomorrow, yay :D

cheers,
xxazrael

silly me

命天 says: (8:21:59 PM)
kalo gue nikah sama org korea namanya kim, anak gue akan gue namain kibum
命天 says: (8:22:05 PM)
siapa tau jd anak boyband juga
Anggya says: (8:22:59 PM)
Makin pasaran ntar artis namanya kibum
Anggya says: (8:23:11 PM)
Nicknamenya siapa ntar?
命天 says: (8:23:16 PM)
gapapa ntar ada group di FB namanya 'kim kibum united'
命天 says: (8:23:21 PM)
BUM BUM CAR

no kim kibums, I don't hate any of you. I love the three of you(s). it's just that I'm a bit insane today :/

my nose is a bit runny and I feel dizzy. feels like i'm going to catch fever soon. it's not that unusual, actually it happens rly often cuz i have this kind of body. but like what i've wrote on my previous post, i'll stay grateful to God :D

still have tryout tomorrow so i can't skip school. maybe will do at friday if i don't have remedial test, 'cause my body needs rest.

Good night reader, God blesses you

xxazrael

p.s: 命天 is me, it's my chinese name xD; yuppers, ming tian 8D

:D

I think I should feel more grateful about everything I've gone through and will went through. I believe that it's God's will that made me walk in the path I'm walking now, and I wouldn't want it any other way.

I've been sulking too much about my weak body and so. But I must be grateful because there are many people with body weaker than mine. I sulked about my fatigue, about my tired-ness of going to school. But I must be grateful because there are many people who can't go to school even if they want to.

I think I'm lacking of spirit lately. And also the lack of motivation got to me. Nowadays, I was like, "C'mon Kenny, you can do better than this!" to myself each time I'm doing something -anything. Yet, I didn't try harder.

Okay, I'm rambling and I don't even know what I'm talking about atm.
Let's end this post with my dream :)

"I want to make a school in which my students will enjoy going to school, not burdened. And maybe I'll start with a Kindergarten because in Kindergarten, we build those toddlers to be good, and if we succeed, it'll be like the most honorable thing in this world"

cheers,
xxazrael

#LoveisUnity

#LoveisUnity because we are one. one family made by God who loves us all the same. -nikenny

New Living Translation (©2007)
We love each other because He loved us first. -1 John 4:19

I love you God

cheers,
xxazrael

piko-piko

oh yush i'm just random~

i know i haven't update much, it's just that i don't know what to post, so yeah~ haha

anyway, i've got a lover. maybe all of you already known that. yep, it's non other that my lovely gadgets~ say hello to my baby (laptop), haeby (phone), and minmin (ipod). no, that's a lie, i don't name them (except my laptop, which i really name baby HAHA) okay i'm rambling.

right now my brother is shouting at our servant, and should i say how much i hate it when he does that? yes, i really hate it. it's just that...how can i say it.. it seems like he doesn't know anything about fucking manners. yes, i'm cursing, and i don't curse much.

i don't know if i've blogged about this before, but I kinda despise my step siblings. they deserve it for everything. starting from manners and brain, they have like almost nothing. oh Holy Mother of FLYING PANCAKES my sister doesn't even know how to use ipod YET she bought one. and now? duh, she kept asking me how to put songs into itunes and i was just like "....."
MAAAN, I didn't need anyone to fucking teach me how to do that! even worse, she asked me how to download song from internet.

may I laugh? yes, sure. okay i'm laughing atm

I mean, HELLO she's a year older than me yet i'm MUCH MORE SMARTER than her (i'm not boasting, everyone knows that already). sometimes I think that she is brainless. or a lunatic. or both, yes.

imagine this: IF you have 2 little brothers who currently fighting, what will you do? pull them apart, yes?

what my sister did when it happened? she told them to continue it. yes, you read it right. she told them to continue it, even to hit each other.
oh dang, i don't believe that she even has a brain right after that happened HAHA

am I cruel? yes, sometimes.

oh dang, I'm rambling. i'm gonna stop now

keep it a secret from my sister please? she couldn't read this anyway, she doesn't understand english (or maybe that's an understatement)

cheers

xxazrael